Monday, November 12, 2007

A Kitten or a Puppy

Today's appointment went well. I was a wreck leading up to it, scared shitless that something was wrong. I didn't eat lunch, I snapped at people at work, it was just ugly.

Luckily, my fears were unfounded. Spidey is doing fine in there. In fact, Spidey either got into the crack cocaine or is part Mexican Jumping Bean. It was so active that even the sonogram tech was laughing. This, of course, is scary to me since I already have an over-active child at home. These are good problems to have, don't get me wrong. I was just hoping for a laid back, mellow child this time.

I'm 12w1d, and Spidey was measuring 12w5d. The nuchal fold measurement was 1.5 and they like to see it under 3.0. So that's good news. All other things they look for (brain, spine, stomach, etc.) seemed to be what they were expecting. The heartbeat was 155bpm. Now we wait for the bloodwork results as we hold our breath.

There are no words that can express my relief at passing this milestone -- Milestone #27 of about 100 of them. We still have a long, long way to go, but I'm absolutely thrilled to be here right now.

Apparently it's somewhat of a game with them at this Doctor's office to try and guess the gender. The tech and the Doctor both made a guess, and it was the same verdict. Since they were nowhere near sure, we're not putting much stock in it. My 18 week appt (where we will check for all the organs and hopefully find out the gender for sure) is on Christmas Eve. Man, oh man, I hope nothing goes wrong or that will make for one shitty Christmas.

They asked me if we wanted a boy or a girl. I replied, "I honestly don't care. It could come out as a kitten or a puppy and I would be fine with that as long as it was healthy." They thought that was hilarious, but I was only barely kidding.

Now I have to wait a whole 18 days until my next OB appointment. I usually weasel my way into a sonogram, so we'll see how that goes. My friend at work offered to lend me her doppler and I might take her up on it, just to ease my continual fears. Of course she's only 16 weeks along so I'm not sure if she really wants to give it up now, or if she was just saying that today when I was muttering under my breath about the fear of another dead baby inside of me.

Talking like that freaks her out, and I wish I could filter it better, but I've seen too many tragedies at my own ultrasounds not to be constantly preparing for the worst. What's crazy is that she's the 40 year old who got pregnant on her first IUI (surely you remember me bitterly bitching about her before) so I'm not sure why she's so calm and nonplussed all the time. It baffles my mind. And it makes me sad that I've been so changed, so scarred by this entire babymaking process.

Thank you for all of your kind words and your prayers. They are working! Now go see Erin to wish her luck at her appointment on Wednesday. Yea for the Wonder Twins!

25 comments:

Kim said...

I am so glad everything went well.

We rented a doppler from www.babybeat.com the first time around. You can even pay a bit extra and send it back with a recorded heartbeat on it and they'll send you back a CD. I loved that.

I'm with ya, I have one VERY high-energy, high-maintenance child and hope that if/when we do have another, they'll consent to Ritalin in-utero.

Waiting Amy said...

While I ADORE kittens and puppies (except when they were bitting me before their shots) ... I'm hoping for a healthy boy or girl. :)

BTW - I loved what you wrote at "a little pg" today.

Grad3 said...

I am so glad that it all worked out today! Yay for you and baby- I hope you have a VERY merry Christmas this year ;)

I would also like to say thanks for the shout out in your last post, it was sweet of you... ~Hug~

I will never know though how you know how far along I am... how do you know????

Erin said...

Hmm...boy or girl, either way I'm fine, but puppy or kitten? I'd have to go puppy all the way!

Anyway, great news about your appointment today! I'm glad you're feeling a little more relaxed, even though I know you're totally going to scam a scan between now and your next legit appt! ScanWhore!!!!! (said with love, of course)

Fertilize Me said...

i am glad that spidey is doing fine. I am sorry about your nerves

Caro said...

Great news!

Artblog said...

I'm so relieved :) XXXXXX

seussgirl said...

Yey for bouncy beans! Mine were also bouncing around enough to make the tech laugh. :)
May the bouncing just signify healthy for now, and he/she will be back to mellow when they come out!

TeamWinks said...

So glad to hear the scan went so well! Christmas Eve...hmmm...I'm just going to believe that Santa wouldn't be so cruel as to have anything but good news brought your way. Perhaps you should go and ask him, but be sure to take pictures for us!

LJ said...

Whew! Another good visit! I am so excited for you!

Shelby said...

Yeah!!! I'm SO glad that it went well!

Kate said...

Congrats on a good ultrasound and being 12 weeks!

JJ said...

Glad it went well--and I agree-I love me some puppies and kittens I cant wait to find out if it's a boy or girl ;)

Gabby said...

I am so glad everything went well today. Sounds like Spidey is coming along very well! I am hoping for some great news on Christmas Eve! I can't wait to hear if its a healy baby boy or girl...I know either will do! Tell me what you think of the doppler if you decide to get one. I was interested, but wasn't sure if it was a good idea or not. Well, I will be coming back for updates!

Suzy said...

seriously...i just posted the same thoughts, only much less eloquently and much more briefly, in my blog. doesn't it suck how discovering a missed m/c will scar your future pregnancy experiences? i'm wondering if it ever goes away...

i'm SO glad your 12 week appt went well. hoping good things for you on christmas eve.

Gabby said...

I just wanted to let you know I went to babybeat.com and ordered the basic doppler for the month to month rental at $22 a month. Also, I have a 5% off coupon you can use. Just type in INCD in the promotional code area! So I got it for a total of $20.90. I figured I would go ahead and try it out.

Baby Step said...

Hooray for Spidey!

Jackie said...

I'm glad it went well, hopefully the blood work will come back further reducing your risk and you can check another milestone off the list. Take care!

Samantha said...

I'm so glad things are progressing, although I will say I'm hoping for either a boy or girl, rather than a kitten or a puppy :)

Nearlydawn said...

I understand your sentiments just fine... I was asked today, at 23 wks, what I wanted - girl or boy. I told them "healthy", which is true, but I added, "Frankly, it could be "other" and I'd be OK with it as long as it was healthy and happy." I think my filter was off - it made for a great look on my co-worker's face though! :)

Enjoy!

Karen said...

I'm so glad everything went well!! I adore kittens and puppies, but I'm very glad you're growing a baby human! :)

Rho said...

I love puppies - but human babies more. I am glad that everything went well.

Debby said...

congrats on passing the 12 week mark!

Kami said...

I'm happy to hear everything is going so well!

Cibele said...

YAY!!! I am so glad that everything is progressing well!!!!