Nervous

I'm nervous and I'm surprised by it. I haven't been nervous or anxious about this cycle since I feel like such an IVF veteran. But tonight, on the eve of my baseline scan, I am nervous.

For starters, this has just been a weird period. There have been exactly TWO days that I did not bleed. Oh yeah, you read that correctly. Now it wasn't like full flow (sorry, TMI), but there was some kind of bloody activity every day except two. I'm a little concerned about what might be going on in the ol' ute...

Second, I've been taking DHEA for 2 months now. I haven't experienced the nastiness that others have (insomnia, acne, etc.) but it has truly jacked up my stomach badly. I'm very much looking forward to my retrieval so I can stop taking it. Anyway, I'm nervous about how it will have affected my ovaries. Hopefully I'll go in for my baseline tomorrow and will be stunned by the sight of 8 or 10 antral follies. Yeah, right. But a girl can dream...

I read lots of stuff that said DHEA benefits aren't fully realized until the 4th month of taking the drug. I figure 2 months is at least *something*. But, a couple of weeks ago, I read an article or comments somewhere or something (probably blocked it out as a self-preservation technique) that said DHEA made people's egg production WORSE. ACK! Are you KIDDING me?!

So, between the crazy bloodfest and the possiblity of even worse egg production than normal (can you have negative eggs?), I'm nervous about tomorrow's baseline scan. My appt is at 7am so at least 12 hours from now I'll have some sort of answer. The first of 7,682 hurdles to clear...