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I'm still hopelessly addicted to pee sticks. I woke up yesterday morning and this morning, vowing not to cave in to their lure. But by lunchtime I'm sweating, shaking, and muttering about how to score a stick.
I peed on a stick last night around 9pm, and today around 1pm. I had peed (in the toilet, not a cup) fairly recently both times, but hoped that wouldn't matter since my HCG should be nice and high now. Both times, the 2nd line came up as the pee was moving across the window. I've never seen anything like it! On today's stick, the test line darkened at exactly the same pace as the control line. And, unbelievably, it's actually darker than the control line. I guess I've reached the limit of sensitivity on these darned things.
I have still had a fair amount of brown sludge-like spotting (sorry, TMI) since Saturday. Not every time I go to the bathroom, but most of the time. Last night, I got up around 1:30am to pee and when I wiped, there was bright red blood. I swear I felt woozy for a moment. I wiped 2 more times and there was some red blood each time. That sure sucks!
Therefore, I decided to take today off work -- not because I think "bedrest" at 4w2d would make a damn bit of difference, but because I didn't feel like being a raging neurotic wreck at work when I had a relatively easy day anyway. Not enough to distract me!
So far today, no spotting at all. Not even the brown stuff. And I've peed plenty. I'm smart enough to know there's spotting in my future, but to have the reprieve today is nice.
I'm educated enough to know that spotting is not necessarily an indication of doom. Let's review my previous pregnancies...
#1 - spotted brown & red from 4w - 8w. Outcome: Megan (healthy, but crazy child)
#2 - spotted brown from 4w - 7w. Outcome: m/c at 8w (chromosomally healthy boy)
#3 - no spotting at all. Outcome: m/c at 8w (trisomy 5 girl)
#4 - spotting brown & red. Outcome: don't know yet
So I've had a pregnancy with spotting that was fine, one with spotting that was not fine, and one with no spotting that was not fine. The bottom line? It's totally out of my control.
It's totally out of my control. I HATE THAT.
I have the best nurse on Earth. I emailed her about the spotting and she said I could come in tomorrow for my beta, instead of waiting until Thursday. Wahoo!