Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Good news, Bad news

Good news:

You guys are the best support system anyone could possibly ask for. The outpouring of support and excitement has been overwhelming. When I'm feeling nervous or scared, I just log on and read some of your comments. It makes me feel 200% better. Does this mean I'm officially a Comment Whore?

Bad news:

I'm still hopelessly addicted to pee sticks. I woke up yesterday morning and this morning, vowing not to cave in to their lure. But by lunchtime I'm sweating, shaking, and muttering about how to score a stick.

Good news:

I peed on a stick last night around 9pm, and today around 1pm. I had peed (in the toilet, not a cup) fairly recently both times, but hoped that wouldn't matter since my HCG should be nice and high now. Both times, the 2nd line came up as the pee was moving across the window. I've never seen anything like it! On today's stick, the test line darkened at exactly the same pace as the control line. And, unbelievably, it's actually darker than the control line. I guess I've reached the limit of sensitivity on these darned things.

Bad news:

I have still had a fair amount of brown sludge-like spotting (sorry, TMI) since Saturday. Not every time I go to the bathroom, but most of the time. Last night, I got up around 1:30am to pee and when I wiped, there was bright red blood. I swear I felt woozy for a moment. I wiped 2 more times and there was some red blood each time. That sure sucks!

Therefore, I decided to take today off work -- not because I think "bedrest" at 4w2d would make a damn bit of difference, but because I didn't feel like being a raging neurotic wreck at work when I had a relatively easy day anyway. Not enough to distract me!

So far today, no spotting at all. Not even the brown stuff. And I've peed plenty. I'm smart enough to know there's spotting in my future, but to have the reprieve today is nice.

Good news:

I'm educated enough to know that spotting is not necessarily an indication of doom. Let's review my previous pregnancies...

#1 - spotted brown & red from 4w - 8w. Outcome: Megan (healthy, but crazy child)
#2 - spotted brown from 4w - 7w. Outcome: m/c at 8w (chromosomally healthy boy)
#3 - no spotting at all. Outcome: m/c at 8w (trisomy 5 girl)
#4 - spotting brown & red. Outcome: don't know yet

So I've had a pregnancy with spotting that was fine, one with spotting that was not fine, and one with no spotting that was not fine. The bottom line? It's totally out of my control.

Bad news:

It's totally out of my control. I HATE THAT.

Good news:

I have the best nurse on Earth. I emailed her about the spotting and she said I could come in tomorrow for my beta, instead of waiting until Thursday. Wahoo!

20 comments:

My Reality said...

I hope the spotting proves to be nothing and your beta comes back with a really high number!

Rachel said...

I'm so happy for your positive stick. I hope the spotting stops soon and turns out to be nothing...

Shelby said...

good luck tomorrow!! Glad the nurse is letting you come in earlier. Hope the spotting is nothing!!

Kami said...

Such crazy times! Good luck at your beta tomorrow. I hope it all just goes textbook perfect.

Rich said...

I am hoping for a high beta and that the spotting is nothing to worry about.

Erin said...

Seems to me like you're closest to when you were pg with Megan, so here's hoping this one's sticking around for the long haul!

Good luck with your cross town relay race tomorrow!

Meghan said...

Sorry about all your spotting. I'm a constant spotter too and I just know I'll drive myself crazy with it if I ever get pregnant. Glad you've still got those positive sticks to keep you going though.

Fertilize Me said...

sending you good vibes and hugs

Delenn said...

Maybe Spidey is giving more trouble cuz its sticking? Wishing you luck!

dmarie said...

your stick tales are cracking me up :) I'm sorry about the spotting. Yay for the earlier beta. Keep us posted and hang in there!

Tam said...

I hope that it's just some blood left over from implantation and nothing serious. Good luck for the beta, can't wait to hear the numbers. Geez, I had no idea that you'd actually conceived so many times. Hoping this one turns out well sweetie!! Hugs xxx

Caro said...

I'm crossing everything for you that it all works out ok.

Shelli said...
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Shelli said...

sending you some good vibes!!

Artblog said...

Seems to me like your body just spots during pregnancy. I have lots of friends who had this and their babies were born fine.

Now, I know you love doing it, but stop peeing on sticks girl, it wont make any difference to the outcome, just to your bank balance :) wait for the beta, oy :)

XXX

Samantha said...

I the spotting won't be important for you. May everything be good with this one!

Tam said...

Geez, you got me waiting on tenter hooks here, come on, we want numbers already!! I'm praying soooo hard for you Chick!!

Grad3 said...

I know that you'll feel better once you get the beta... well, a little better. Keep us posted and I hope that this a sticky baby for you! Lots of luck...

TeamWinks said...

Hoping for a kick ass beta!

LJ said...

Good luck today, you know I'll be thinking of you. Well, you and Karen, but definitely you. We need this to work!